sleep.
sleep naked.
naked.

now feel.

if i told you what was is what could have been and it fell apart just because i couldnt hold on to it, would that change aything?

eyes
soul
nothing
fear as i feel
u hurt me as i wont hurt you
..................
my abyss is my friend
we re alone


even when we share the same space
even when im alone as u are

"love me"

{i already do}

human?ami?

when you put your hands out
when you pulled me off the chair
and you held me close
you made me feel
.
.
.
.
when we danced
.
.
.
.
.
when u held me close
you made me feel
.
.
.
.

and i let you you in
.
.
.
.

so i could let myself out

lay there, almost lifeless
touching skin,
breath - so deep
feel it,
the first time it enters
the pain,
almost a rush
every thrust,
a scream
harder faster
a whimper,
begging to stop
almost unreal,
so real,
surreal
it won't stop
it can't stop
flowing strong
undulating
release

sweat blood shit


lay there, lifeless

first time

go ahead run your hands all over it
you know you want to feel it
nice and hard

just how you want it

lick your lips in anticipation

"this WILL be fun"
but you want to look at it
savour the image
close your eyes and imagine




imagine what its going to feel like
time waits for no one
the first touch sends shivers
as you run your hands all over it
you know it was for you and you only

carrrrrrreessssssssssss

hold it like it was your first love
it has to start to end
and YOU have to end it




the first blast reverbed through the
corridors of an empty mind
you feel it splatter all over you
all warm and sticky
you taste whats on your lips
the second blast spread itself on the
sheets


YOU tasted the bitterness
and closed YOUR eyes
for the last time